“Much to Your Dismay”

© 2013 Allison Merten

When I opened my eyes this morning, I thought I was dreaming when I heard you say that I wasn’t worth being loved by you. I realized that this was reality when you packed your clothes, you took my ring, and left frantically. And you left me there to drown in my tears.

Much to your dismay, this heartache will not kill me. I will survive the pain. Even though you made me lose trust in everyone, I will grow stronger everyday. Everyday.

Two weeks have gone by, and I wish we were still together. But why should I want you when I was treated wrong? Are relationships supposed to be one-sided. Are they always supposed to be full of fighting? I don’t think so. So why did I put up with that?

Much to your dismay, this heartache will not kill me. I will survive the pain. Even though you made me lose trust in everyone, I will grow stronger everyday. Everyday.

You said we’d move in together. You said you’d marry me and love me forever. Then you said, “I guess I changed my mind.” According to you I had too much of an opinion. You didn’t like that you couldn’t push me around. All you wanted to do was own me.

Thanks for breaking my heart. You saved me. I’ve had time to see I was treated so badly.

Much to your dismay, this heartache will not kill me. I will survive the pain. Even though you made me lose trust in everyone, I will grow stronger everyday. Everyday. Everyday.