Returning to My Dream

On Sunday, I finally returned to Willie Martinez’s recording studio. I finished recording my sixth song, “One Woman Ain’t Enough.”

The last time I was there was February. I can’t believe I took such a long break…and I feel angry at myself for it. If sharing my music with the world has been my lifelong dream, why did I just stop? I don’t really know what happened. But I do know that I can’t get those past 4 months back.

My original goal was to finish my CD in April, but April is long gone.

As an independent artist, no one is giving me deadlines. It’s all up to me. And that’s what’s scary about all of this. I am the sole determiner of whether or not I can achieve my dream.

After talking about how disappointed I was with myself for taking such a long break from working on achieving my dream. Willie Martinez told me, “What’s done is done. But now you can start again.”

I keep thinking about what Willie said, and I keep thinking about the fortune cookie fortune that I keep on my refrigerator. It reads: “Go after what you want; there’s no time like the present.”

Although I feel that I screwed up by losing my perseverance and letting 4 months go by, I know that the only way to fix this is to move forward.

Thank you to all of you who have been so supportive of me. You helped me get back on track and start again.

Before, I wanted to finish my CD because it has been my lifelong dream to share my music with the world. But now, in addition to finishing my CD for myself, I want to finish my CD because I cannot let you all down.

Thank you for helping me persevere!